I have done tough rides before: RTIs on Lundy’s wheel, AUDAX 300km while sick, AUDAX 600km while not sick- still hard, ‘I’m hungry’ rides with Damian ripping the group apart….but really nothing compares to this ride up Monte Grappa. We had already done Monte Grappa up the less-hard way the day before and the crazy cyclists from Singapore wanted to do it again the day after…and not the less-hard way but the way the professionals did it in the GIRO this year. Today’s ride would be 19km to the Cima Grappa. I had five gels left and I carried them all to ensure I had enough energy to get me to the top. Eight of us left the ICC together and after 2.4km we hit the base of the climb. I thought of my nutrition plan: I would take one gel from the start to ensure that the good stuff was flowing through my tired veins by the time I started going up the climb, one gel at 7.40km, one gel at 12.40km, one gel at 17.40km and one before the end of the 19km…..five gels for 19km should be more than enough.
We started up the climb which was a narrower road and immediately was on 9% gradient. The beginning was mostly switchbacks and for the first six turns (of a total 28) were all above 9, 10 or 11% gradients (read hard on my tired legs)….my breathing was very heavy as I churned away in my gears pressing up the hill. Similar to Kim the day before, I was checking my Garmin very often to see how much of the 19km I was getting rid of…the only problem was that it was going so slow and I found I was looking at this thing every 100 meters or so…..on I pressed. I was closely paying attention to the distance as I was dying to have another gel despite just finishing a big breakfast less than one hour ago. I was using tons of energy. 9, 10, 11% I was wondering where the smoother parts were. I finally hit a small flatish area that seemed to run less than a kilometer. I sped along trying to get ride of distance as fast as possible to be hit by sections of 12-15% gradient….even harder. I started readjusting my gel sequencing figuring that if I did not take more sooner I would not make it to the 17.4km or further distance….I had to survive. My legs were absolutely shattered from the previous days climb and all the riding already completed during the past week.
I finally crossed the 10km mark on my Garmin, which meant I still had more than 11km to go (19km climb plus 2.4km from ICC)….only three gels left I thought….I had better take one now before I blow up. I started thinking about other things to eat like grass or whatever because I was using energy faster than ever before. Now after 12.5km, I had only two gels…..must make it to the top I kept thinking. I was dying slowly on this climb breathing massively heavy and sweating like crazy….and started to get cold due to the elevation. There was a section of 15% that seemed to go on forever. I finally reached the second small decline of this climb which actually was a bit long…well longer than the first flat section but not really that long….I was reading all the signs on the side of the road to see if they would go faster than the count on my Garmin…unfortunately they did not. I stopped briefly in a cow field thinking about the possibility that I may spend a long time, potentially forever, here in this cow patch. Onward I went with the goal of reaching the part where this climb intersects the less-hard route I did the day before. I finally saw the intersection point and it was hellishly steep to reach that point…..press on I told myself…press on.
I reached the final 1km, knowing that my supportive friends who were able to beat me up the climb would be there to offer help and encouragement to get me across the line. I was staring down at my Garmin without seeing it and looking directly at the road…I had no energy to look up at all. I heard some noises up top so I knew I must be close. When I finally rounded the top I put my bike alongside the restaurant, my friends cheered, or jeered, I am not sure, as I approached the counter in the cafeteria. I muttered the words ‘cappuccino’, and pointed to a strudel as I was too weak to speak anymore. I started to think about where to sit…I saw an empty seat at the table outside or there were many inside…go out, be social I thought. I started to walk with my coffee and strudel, only to start trembling…I was sweating like crazy and freezing all at the same time….I almost dropped my strudel and coffee….alas I heard noises from the table….it was Lee…I thought he was offering some words of encouragement and a helping hand, when really he was laughing and getting a camera to snap a photo of me in a rare moment of weakness. Strange I thought, only a day before I had greeted him with a coffee upon his late arrival at the top, and only a few days before I had dragged him more than 60km to safety after his implosion on a Leopoldo ride. Anyhow I finally made it to the table and was able to sit with my strudel and coffee…still incoherent whilst sitting with the group. I have no clue what was happening…only 19km with 5 gels and I thought I was going to die. I was freezing and sweating and then thinking about the long 27km descent I still had to do.

This was my only picture of the day. Despite the climb being somewhat scenic with nice road markings for the Giro, I could not think about photos…survival was my key thought.
After making the descent, we headed back to ICC while Damian, Lee and Gareth went to Bassano for lunch and to watch the summit finish on the Tourlamet. We planned on going over after lunch to join them. An easy ride…well after cleaning up a bit and getting into my civilian clothes, I really thought about how much I did not want to ride…I hated my bike, and I am sure I could not get my leg over it despite the ride was going to be very easy. ‘how about a taxi?’ I suggested to the group…they agreed and I was relieved. When we arrived at the usual pub in Bassano I had to prop myself up against the freezer as I was afraid I would have fallen off my chair…I was totally dead. Everybody has a weak day sometime and this was mine…I was shattered and I was taking an easy or no ride on our final day on Friday at ICC. This was the hardest ride I have done in my life. I think I almost cried…maybe I did. 